Where is my timing and LUCK?

I am currently really stress with the job hunts! I have been working 5 days in a row over the weekend, and finally, when I have a day off from all the stress, I am loaded with all these interviews and job hunting dilemma. This morning, I did not get to sleep in, having to wake up as early as 8.30 am, to attend an interview in St Kilda Road, and another one on Elizabeth St. Nothing major or great about it because these interviews are conducted with the recruitment agents, and more of catching up on where I want to head to. Seriously, I sometimes don't have a clue what I can do or want to do! Does anyone out there feel the same? Or am I abnormal?

I have another interview with a company in Collingwood this Thursday and I have to work. This what I call work dilemma, because I hate to lie and I will never get to sleep or rest nicely when I know am about to lie. There are 3 options, to not go to work on Thursday, call in sick, which is the most common thing to do, or create an emergency story and take Thursday off, or do a swap with one of my colleagues this week and next week. I am trying to stay away from the sickie because I know how it feels to call in sick early in the morning pretending and then leaving the team with one less people to work, knowing this week will be really busy. I think. I will go with the second option, tomorrow first thing at work, I will just say my cousin is in the hospital (touchwood) "Chinese believe of not happening", I need to take a day off. Or worst come to worst I will swap with my workmate. I worry so much even before it happens, tonight I am not going to be able to sleep.

It sucks knowing how much time and effort spent in looking for the right job, and in the end, not having it will really make me devastated! Job hunting is all about the right timing and luck and for all these years, where the hell are my right timing and luck? Can anyone tell me? All these time spending time being interviewed by agents, and they are working so slow, and taking it easy, but they are frank letting me know it's not impossible but it's hard to find a job within the head office environment given the fact I don't have admin or head office experience. It takes time, god knows how long!

Sometimes, I feel I regret not taking the right step when I graduated from Marketing back in Monash. What is the point having such a good university name, and paying so much for the degree, when in the end I am stuck at doing what I am doing now, retail. At the end of the day, is all about the experience, it can bring you to where you want to be, but not a degree. What is the point of studying in the first place? Maybe I am just getting a little impatient with all these, I want to be sure the next job I looked for, will be the one for me, will make me stay longer than my past working experience. Don't get me wrong, I do like my job, but just not the environment and the pay and of course the no weekends issue. I am looking for the same passion I have for fashion, but looking at a better working environment, or is there such thing as a healthy working environment?

Right now at this moment, I know how important is it to always make the right decision in your career, when you start young at a right place, you will not have problem moving on, but when you start at a different phase, and wanting to take a step back to where you want to, it's not impossible but it's very hard. I am feeling it right now.

Time for Reflection

It's been a while since I last updated, and I have to admit, I had many things happening but at the same time, I am just too lazy to blog about it, sometimes you just want to keep everything to yourself and let it pass like it never happened. It's nearly a month since I last blogged and I know some of you out there are getting tired and bored with my blog, but I will try to blog as much as possible, probably on how my life is getting on at the moment.

Let's start of with work, I guess I can never say anything nice about work, so typical, but this week, work is not as hectic, and I am feeling fine. For the last 3 weeks, I have been feeling stress with work, I don't know what I am stressed about, but there was a point in time, I felt like leaving Gucci right away, without looking for another job, ironic but it's true. I guess I do get annoyed when I have to work weekends, but the worst experience is not able to have a good night sleep, I have been having sleepless nights, and it's bad for my skin and body. I think it's the bed, I need to change the mattress, or maybe I am just thinking too much before I fall asleep. Life goes on, I am hunting for a new job, not an intensive one, but step by step I guess. If I want a job that suits me and let me learn, an office base role, no weekends and out of retail, I need more time and patient and believe I can. Or I should be less choosy, picky or petty, but at the same time, I need to choose the best and not get stuck at a job I hate. Whatever, life goes on.....

Whenever I feel sad, or breaking down, or leaving, life goes on. I find myself too emotional, in anything I face or handle in life, I worry too much, to a point I feel I worry and not do anything to help myself. Recently, I have been thinking about home, I miss home so much. There are times, I think what it would be like to be in Malaysia, will I be contented, sad or just plain happy? I miss my friends, my home, my family and I guess after 4.5 years here, I still can't call Melbourne my home. I wonder if I will ever go back to Malaysia and stay there for the rest of my life? The grass always look greener on the other side, that is what my friends think. Everyone back in Malaysia can't wait to come to Aus to work and start their life, but as for me I am curious to go back and give it a try.

Anyway, during my stay here in Melbourne, I have met a few wonderful friends, whom I feel comfortable sharing my feelings and problems with. It's hard to find friends that click during this age, when everyone has their own lives, partners and work. I am blessed to have my good friends standby me through out my sad times, and who are willing to listen.

I am 25 this year, going on 26, life is short, why not treasure everyone you have, every second, making the best out of it. This will be the motto of my life.

Weekend Retreat

My weekend has been tiring, not from work but from making use of the weekend off I have, and it feels so good not working on a SUNDAY! On Friday night, after work, a long 6 days in a row, I met up with my friends at Wagamama for dinner in QV. I would not say the food is awesome, but acceptable, just that my dish came out 30 minutes late and I knew I was very hungry, and everyone was eating while I just stared at their food. We met up with Sophia, a new friend in the group, hope to see you more :) After dinner, we went to the Atrium at Sofitel for some cocktails, a lounge with non smoking people, it's cosy and comfortable, I probably will go back for more!

The night ended early, about 11.30 pm, some of us have to work the very next Sat morning, and the fact that we are all ageing, we were very tired and off we went home to sleep on a Friday night. On Sat arvo, we had yum cha at the new Burwood Shark Finn restaurant, food was average but I liked the newly renovated place, right after that, we went to Chadstone to shop, but as usual I am the shopaholic, managed to get a winter hat and jacket in less than an hour :P I could not afford to wait for the Wednesday night VIP sale, given the fact I am a size 6, and these small sizes run out quickly.

At about 4.30 pm, I went to Boxhill to look at some townhouses/units, I had the worst experience, the Asian agent farted while walking up the stairs, and my friends and I had the hardest time to breathe. He pretend nothing happened and started asking questions, but I swear I could not answer anything, and had to leave as soon as possible for his fart was going to suffocate me. I am serious! It stinks a 100x's. You all can laugh, a good laughing medicine for you :)

We went back to Billy's home to watch ''The Ghost'', a Korean horror movie, had TGIF for dinner, because we had 2 free vouchers to use, and only paid 2 mains for 4 people, worth the 30 minutes wait for our table. Later, we went to Stokers at Kew to have pancakes dessert and used a voucher and only paid $7 each! This is one of the most fulfilling weekend I ever experienced, most of all, creating the closer bond together.

Today, I am off to watch Pirates of the Caribbeans 3 and we are using the Village vouchers! All these vouchers expire next Friday, and I only realised it now, so we might as well make use of it before it expires.

Till then, Happy Weekend everyone!

Determination to be a star

Everyday I see stars on TV, news, and magazines, but then when you have friends that pursue to be a singer or to start a band themselves, you give your full support. At the moment, I have a primary school friend who sings really well, and he is pursuing this career and I have listen to his first single, and I can say, he will make it big! I am always curious to know how they feel, how much they need to go through to become who they are, basically, it's different when all these stories are told from a friend you know. All the best Eric! Although one day you will be famous, I guess we can still talk like friends, and I will not treat you differently, when you are one, being a friend to a friend is different from being a friend to a star.

Novel, who is trying to set up a band in Indonesia is having the same paths, and he is very talented in his guitar skills, and I have heard him play and sing, he is very talented. I admire talented people who have the determinations to work towards their goals, and would take the risk to achieve it. I have listened to his demo, although he might not be a singer, but he is contributing his talent to the group. Good luck to you too!

People out there, if you do one day listen to their names in, they are the talented ones out there!

Winter is finally here

Every morning, I find waking up for work rather difficult, the fact it's so cold, and you just want to snuggle under the quilt and sleep in. Winter is finally here. I am not excited about it, I am more of a summer girl, I don't mind the heat but not the cold, and for the past few days it has been severely cold, with chilling wind, I am running out of winter clothing to wear. Mission number 1, shop for winter tops and hats. I will be having my weekend off, for the very first time since I got back from my holidays, and I am using it to the fullest, fortunately a sunny day on Sat :) I would like to try one of those winter hats, saw one from Kookai, looks stylish and something different!

I am addicted to cosmetic items, such as lip gloss, eye shadow and nail polishes. My mission number 2, is to check out the latest Gorgio Armani Black palette, limited edition. I know, I am supposed to save for a house and a car, but no harm in rewarding myself after a long week at work, working six days in a row again! I had a great weekend, on Saturday, I bumped around, slept in, and stayed home watching some movies and on Sunday night, Billy and I caught up with his old uni mate and his wife. They are married, and so mature, I feel like a kid around them :P Billy and I are still in the honeymoon period, but then again, different people have different perceptions in settling down.

Here are some pictures at Red Emperor, my second time in a week, I have to say the food is great!

Yen, Billy, Livia and Kenneth