I am sick!

I am coughing, I don't feel good. I don't want to go to work. I want to call in sick!

:(

Birthday weekend!

Last weekend was the best weekend I ever had,we ate, drank ,sang and most importantly, hanging out with the right crowd :) On Friday night, we had Karaoke at the Glen, I honestly don't sing, but then with the right crowd and some alcohol, I was singing, or shouting, or let's say screaming, but I enjoyed myself. The night out was to celebrate Marcus's and Billy's 26 Th birthday, with a huge cake, but unfortunately we could not not finish it. One late night down, one more to go. The very next day, we had dinner at Sarti, an Italian Restaurant, the food is great, but the servings were too small, but then again, is fine dining. After dinner, we had dessert at Max Brenner in QV, and then headed back to Billy's place for some wine and a Monopoly game. I suck at this game, Chris and I went bankrupt at the first round, we had to mortgaged or sell our properties! We played till 3 am, and realised that we need to get to bed, another late night has drained all of us mentally. The signs of getting old :) On a Sunday, I decided to just sleep in, relaxed and watched some movies, and be prepared to get back to work on a Monday, I had the worst time because I so wanted to continue my weekends.

I miss the weekend, now I am back with no weekends except for some Saturdays, which I really treasure so much, but yet having one person to understand is so hard. Why don't they ever try to understand or think of our feelings and situations before doing something. Maybe if you could ask or let me know in advance, things wont turned so ugly, and I will not be upset. It's all about respect and communicating. You think for your partner first before thinking for yourself. This is how life goes when you are committed to a person. I am just a human with emotions, and not one of your events of lifeless things, when somehow you can be so committed to the things.

Anyway here are some pictures of my last weekend :)

My baby and I 17/07/07

Drink with style















My present to him :)















Sang K, The Glen, everyone is jolly from the alcohol















The Huge Dark and White Chocolate..Yummy















Bobby, Myself, and Christine, we were so drunk!















Dinner at Sarti















This picture is so much more presentable as compared to the drunk pics, the before and after effect :P


Love
Yen

Rain rain go away.....

Melbourne has been cold and wet for the past 2 weeks, it's a good thing, we are short of water and now the water storage has increase. I guess I am not a winter person, I dislike the cold weather, wet surroundings, and most of all it makes you feel moody. Work this week is a ''bitch'', I am really stress, too many things to do yet so little time. I forgot important dates, I don't recall receiving sms, and one morning, I wore my sister jeans instead, wondering why did I put on so much weight! Anyways, I am sorry if I have not been replying every one's call and sms, I was over exhausted and mentally tired.

I have requested to take next Friday, Saturday and Sun day off, it's a long weekend for me, claimed my time in lieu, I need some good rest, a break from Gucci. It feels so good to have the weekends off, I have decided to request for almost every weekend off, or at least a Saturday off. It's good for myself, besides I feel can do more with my friends, not having to worry to work the very next day.

Today, I had a facial, I had to clear all my pimples on my face, hidden ones, and now it's so red and ugly. I will need to wait at least for a week, before it's all clear and clean, the reason why I am staying home tonight. I feel good now, my face feels extremely clean and fresh, no make up, just red spots and scars at the moment. I reckon ever since I took up my new roles as a supervisor, I have lack of sleep and water, mentally and physically tired, and stress, as a result, I am having bad pimples break out. Also, having to put make up everyday, the fact I am working on the front line, being presentable and professional, has contributed to the break out. I will remain positive and hoping it will be much better later. Or maybe I am going through hormonal changes, it's common for females at this age, it proves I am still young :P

I hope next week will be a better week for me, staying positive and happy, sometimes it's hard, but I guess at the end of the day, this is the only way to keep you going. At this age, everything you do seems like a burden, can't be as care free as before, everyday there are different problems, and yet, we still have to get through it.

Where is my timing and LUCK?

I am currently really stress with the job hunts! I have been working 5 days in a row over the weekend, and finally, when I have a day off from all the stress, I am loaded with all these interviews and job hunting dilemma. This morning, I did not get to sleep in, having to wake up as early as 8.30 am, to attend an interview in St Kilda Road, and another one on Elizabeth St. Nothing major or great about it because these interviews are conducted with the recruitment agents, and more of catching up on where I want to head to. Seriously, I sometimes don't have a clue what I can do or want to do! Does anyone out there feel the same? Or am I abnormal?

I have another interview with a company in Collingwood this Thursday and I have to work. This what I call work dilemma, because I hate to lie and I will never get to sleep or rest nicely when I know am about to lie. There are 3 options, to not go to work on Thursday, call in sick, which is the most common thing to do, or create an emergency story and take Thursday off, or do a swap with one of my colleagues this week and next week. I am trying to stay away from the sickie because I know how it feels to call in sick early in the morning pretending and then leaving the team with one less people to work, knowing this week will be really busy. I think. I will go with the second option, tomorrow first thing at work, I will just say my cousin is in the hospital (touchwood) "Chinese believe of not happening", I need to take a day off. Or worst come to worst I will swap with my workmate. I worry so much even before it happens, tonight I am not going to be able to sleep.

It sucks knowing how much time and effort spent in looking for the right job, and in the end, not having it will really make me devastated! Job hunting is all about the right timing and luck and for all these years, where the hell are my right timing and luck? Can anyone tell me? All these time spending time being interviewed by agents, and they are working so slow, and taking it easy, but they are frank letting me know it's not impossible but it's hard to find a job within the head office environment given the fact I don't have admin or head office experience. It takes time, god knows how long!

Sometimes, I feel I regret not taking the right step when I graduated from Marketing back in Monash. What is the point having such a good university name, and paying so much for the degree, when in the end I am stuck at doing what I am doing now, retail. At the end of the day, is all about the experience, it can bring you to where you want to be, but not a degree. What is the point of studying in the first place? Maybe I am just getting a little impatient with all these, I want to be sure the next job I looked for, will be the one for me, will make me stay longer than my past working experience. Don't get me wrong, I do like my job, but just not the environment and the pay and of course the no weekends issue. I am looking for the same passion I have for fashion, but looking at a better working environment, or is there such thing as a healthy working environment?

Right now at this moment, I know how important is it to always make the right decision in your career, when you start young at a right place, you will not have problem moving on, but when you start at a different phase, and wanting to take a step back to where you want to, it's not impossible but it's very hard. I am feeling it right now.

Time for Reflection

It's been a while since I last updated, and I have to admit, I had many things happening but at the same time, I am just too lazy to blog about it, sometimes you just want to keep everything to yourself and let it pass like it never happened. It's nearly a month since I last blogged and I know some of you out there are getting tired and bored with my blog, but I will try to blog as much as possible, probably on how my life is getting on at the moment.

Let's start of with work, I guess I can never say anything nice about work, so typical, but this week, work is not as hectic, and I am feeling fine. For the last 3 weeks, I have been feeling stress with work, I don't know what I am stressed about, but there was a point in time, I felt like leaving Gucci right away, without looking for another job, ironic but it's true. I guess I do get annoyed when I have to work weekends, but the worst experience is not able to have a good night sleep, I have been having sleepless nights, and it's bad for my skin and body. I think it's the bed, I need to change the mattress, or maybe I am just thinking too much before I fall asleep. Life goes on, I am hunting for a new job, not an intensive one, but step by step I guess. If I want a job that suits me and let me learn, an office base role, no weekends and out of retail, I need more time and patient and believe I can. Or I should be less choosy, picky or petty, but at the same time, I need to choose the best and not get stuck at a job I hate. Whatever, life goes on.....

Whenever I feel sad, or breaking down, or leaving, life goes on. I find myself too emotional, in anything I face or handle in life, I worry too much, to a point I feel I worry and not do anything to help myself. Recently, I have been thinking about home, I miss home so much. There are times, I think what it would be like to be in Malaysia, will I be contented, sad or just plain happy? I miss my friends, my home, my family and I guess after 4.5 years here, I still can't call Melbourne my home. I wonder if I will ever go back to Malaysia and stay there for the rest of my life? The grass always look greener on the other side, that is what my friends think. Everyone back in Malaysia can't wait to come to Aus to work and start their life, but as for me I am curious to go back and give it a try.

Anyway, during my stay here in Melbourne, I have met a few wonderful friends, whom I feel comfortable sharing my feelings and problems with. It's hard to find friends that click during this age, when everyone has their own lives, partners and work. I am blessed to have my good friends standby me through out my sad times, and who are willing to listen.

I am 25 this year, going on 26, life is short, why not treasure everyone you have, every second, making the best out of it. This will be the motto of my life.